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11.03.2006
It's been a While
Haluuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.............................
blog gw apa kabar ya? udah lama banget ga isi nih weblog wuehehehehe
Well, it's time for me to catch up things from now!
Maybe, i'm not that tough! Maybe i can't stand up with my feet by self. Maybe, i'm just a kid that used to play with a doll in my barbie's house. It's kind of sad that when i think that kind of way, no one around me. The Cocky mind, has been took control all of my pride. But, i think by crying not sound too cocky right? In fact i think it's kind of a Loser.
Sometimes, ask my self: WHY? and that many times i ask, that many times also i don't WHY. I hate being in this kind of situation. Feeling lonely but theres a lot of people sorround me, it happens a lot! But still, can't help it!
Sometime, i hate being this kind type of person. Too many things that she tries to reach, too many things that she thinks, too many things that she hide, and too many things that she manipulates herself. Actually, who is she trying to kidding of?
*Inspired by the story of K_11a: Yos Sudarso Street, PKU*
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hello sis :)...Assalamu'alaykum...
pengen nulis dalam bahasa Inggris tapi kagak lancar nih, daripada maksudnya gak kena, mendingan pake bahasa depok ajah ya hehehehhee :)
first of all, uda would like to say, "HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, SEMOGA ALLAH SENANTIASA MEMBERIKAN KEBERKAHAN DALAM HIDUP NINA DAN KELUARGA DI PEKANBARU, AAMIIIN."
Abis itu, mo sedikit komentar ama tulisan Nina nih, semoga bisa mencerahkan dan makin yakin bahwa kita tidak pernah sendiri, karena kemanapun wajah kita menghadap, disana ada Wajah 4JJI. :)
Rasa sedih, kesepian, mellow, or what ever, adalah hal yang sangat manusiawi dan akan menjadi kebajikan bila kita sikapi dengan proporsional dan sesuai arahan yang dicontohkan oleh manusia mulia, Rasulullah SAW. Dalam Al-Qur'an surat Ar-Ra'd:28 4JJI berfirman, "Ingatlah, hanya dengan mengingat 4JJI hati akan tenang".
Nah jadi, langkah awal, ketika kita rasa hati kita gundah, sedih, sepi, tidak tenang, gelisah, dan rasa lainnya yang membuat kita tidak nyaman, yang harus kita lakukan adalah banyak-banyak mengingat 4JJI. Bagaimana caranya? Ya paling gampang adalah dengan dzikir lisan, misalnya "SubhanaLLAH, WalhamduliLLAH, Wa laa ilaaha ilaLLAH, WaLLAHu akbar". Kemudian, rasakan benar, ke-Mahasucian 4JJI, bahwa tidak mungkin dia zhalim pada kita, hamba-NYA, tidak mungkin dia memberikan suatu kondisi yang tidak ada hikmahnya buat kita. Trus rasakan benar betapa banyak nikmat yang 4JJI berikan pada kita, walau kadang kita tidak sadar bahwa itu adalah nikmat. Nikmat hidup, nikmat sehat, punya keluarga yang baik, punya suami, punya kesempatan sekolah sampai perguruan tinggi, dan nikmat lainnya yang tak akan pernah bisa dihitung. Lalu mantapkan keyakinan dalam hati bahwa tidak ada ZAT yang pantas disembah selain DIA, tidak ada hal apapun yang boleh mendominasi hidup kita kecuali DIA, tidak ada apapun yang Mahaberkehendak dalam hidup kita kecuali DIA, tidak ada apapun yang dapat menenangkan hati ini kecuali DIA. Dan yang terakhir, rasakan betapa kecilnya diri kita ini dihadapan-NYA yang Mahabesar.
Insya4JJI dari sini akan muncul energi baru yang meluap-luap dari diri kita bahwa kita tidak sendiri. Akan sangat terasa dekapan hangat Sang Mahapecinta itu mendekap diri kita ketika kita merasa kesepian.
Dan, yang paling penting adalah.....
"Ketika Nina merasa sepi, sendirian, yakin deh, saat itu nun jauh di Jakarta sini (di depok juga lho) ada keluarga Nina yang sedang mendoakan Nina supaya senantiasa dalam kebaikan di Riau sana :)" Aamiiin.
Jangan merasa sendiri lagi ya Sis.... :)
Salam buat Momon....
Wassalamu'alaykum,
Uda & Dhian
Posted by: Uda | 14.03.2006
Hi Nin, assalammu'alaikum...
I'm really-really sorry that I missed your birthday. I'm sure whatever excuse would not make up for your dissapointment. So what can I ask from you is only apology.
It must be tough to have your birthday away from your loved one - it is the same with us here. Strange how life evolved - now we're not kids anymore - we're growns up with our own problems cause we now live our live - as you said the path of live we chose to follow.
I agree with you - life is full of choices. Sometime you feel that you made good choices. Other time you feel you made bad choices - but you can not help it. For me when bad times come - I did not deny it. I don't try to be tough in front of anybody else - cause I need to deal with my self first - to steady my self, only after that I can face anyone and see them in their eyes not pretending to be tough, but I am gonna survive.
Reading your blog make me realize how I missed you, my little sister. In fact I'm having difficulties writing this down as tears coming down my eyes. You know when I missed you I pretend that you're not that far away - I pretend that you in Bandung - just like when you're in college - and I imagine that you must be very happy now with your new life and your new job. I never feel that you're that far away - but now I realize that for you it is much harder.
We must communicate often. How easy for you to access email/internet ? I will open a website for our family where we can chat & dump photos & blog, etc. Maybe Uda can help with this set up - or you may have suggestion the best place/website to do this (for free).
Love,
Eneh
Posted by: Eneh | 15.03.2006